This is my little darling .. My loving baby .. This few weeks have been crying at night .. Only she will wake up and sit beside me licking me away knowing i'm upset and emotional .. She getting old .. Having her 7th birthday on 1st Dec ..
8.38am now .. Sleepless night again .. But alot better than the past few nights .. At least able to sleep awhile even though keep waking up .. Having cramps throughout the night .. I thought i'm going to deliver cause the pain is quite unbearable .. Having BH since i wake up ard 7am .. Been having so many BH till my tummy cramps like i did millions of sit-ups .. Pressure at pelvic getting worse .. Hope Isaiah will faster come out .. Maybe another 2 weeks .. Don't know how am i going to survive throughout this two weeks with sleepless night .. Pray i'm able to have some good rest at night .. Can foresee more sleepless nights after bb is born .. Sigh feel so helpless now ..
Tomorrow is Jeannie's darling - Seth full month celebration .. I'm not going .. One reason is i feel so heavy and i don't wan to end up being someone that let people say sarcastic words .. U know sometimes people just love to put their bitterness on someone else to have happiness in return after saying people .. So i rather keep myself away from this kind of people .. Staying at home will be a better choice .. Maybe can finish my scrapbook ?? Impossible .. Still having 8-9 more LOs to go ..
