A little about Wealthfy, My bro shifted Wealthfy to the kitchen beside the window .. Now i'm paranoid that Wealthfy will be drowned to death if it rains heavily .. Checking on him constantly .. Hope he move him back to where he was .. Haha .. Was bored just now so played awhile with him and took this photo .. First time taking his photo !!
Yesterday was a public holiday .. Hubby slept till very late .. Very late to me .. Didn't manage to get my scrapbook stuff, didn't manage to go to united square, didn't manage to get my digi cam .. Just got my pjs and some tees .. How sad .. still, is a good day .. Yes darling i know u dote on me ..
Today Isaiah is 34 weeks 1 day old .. 8.5mths right now .. The date is getting closer and closer .. He's getting bigger and bigger .. Kicking like nobody business .. Sometimes it gets irritating if he kicks my rib bone too much .. Too painful .. But somehow if he prefer to be quiet that day, its makes me worry .. Now i can feel him more .. Everyday touching his little bones, kneecap, elbow .. Head down so didn't manage to touch his head now .. Yes it feels great to touch him like that even before he is born .. Can't wait but so scared .. Today saw a post on singapore motherhood forum, a mummy whose EDD is the same as me is only in the hospital 1 cm dilated .. Freaks me .. Reality is getting real .. Now feeling so confused .. Hoping to pop earlier as is getting heavier but everything is so scary ..
During first trimester, i decided on natural birth without epidural .. 100% .. So confident .. 2nd trimester 50-50 after feeling worse and worse during pregnancy .. Tell u what now i'm like 90% thinking of taking epidural !! Haha .. Asked my hubby he said take epidural cause it will be darn painful .. But he is so worried of side effect after birth .. Now i'm more worrying to the pain i'm going to go through during labour .. Even braxton hicks is killing me .. Feel so helpless .. Can't imagine going through labour .. Have to decide soon .. Feel like going without it so i can feel the pain of being a mother .. Another way round feel like taking it so i can enjoy the whole process of labour .. I think i'm crazy .. Or should i see how things goes when i'm going to deliver ? But still i can't make myself stop thinking of this ..
Why my title is Life is like amazing race .. We are racing against time and things around .. We doesn't know what is in front of us .. The one who set this game for us is who ?But i do believe throughout this game of life, when we fall please don't blame God .. We didn't follow the rules of the game, we played it the wrong way so we end up at the wrong point which is not set by God .. But still, God is gracious enough to give us a u-turn sign and not a game over ! I've never blame God whenever i'm down at the pit cause i know i played this game wrongly .. If in the first place i read the rules, seek advice from God, walk the way he planned for me, i won't end up being in the pit .. Even till today i know i have not walk back beside God but i know He is walking beside me ..
During this pregnancy i learnt alot .. Baby makes me grow up .. There is alot of things i refused to do and think about it .. Like making decision .. It darn difficult to make decision! Alot of things to meddle with .. About pregnancy, labour,confinement .. Yes is driving me nuts .. endless calls to make to source for a confinement lady .. Money, time, environment .. So many things to consider for this baby .. sometimes really want to give up but i can't! So in another way i'm forced to grow .. 1.5mths more to arrival of Isaiah .. More things to learn by then, taking care of him .. Handling a baby endless crying .. Demanding for milk, comfort etc .. Raising him up in the right way .. From daily needs to food wise to discipline , everything single thing i got to learn .. Got to handle myself .. Now i know why woman have to go through this 10 mths of pregnancy .. God wants us to prepare our self to be a mum .. And of course after pregnancy and labour, woman will grow up .. Being more mature and have more patience ..
So i shall endure another few weeks more and i'll face something that is more challenging .. Seriously if u ask me what will i do next time, i couldn't tell u .. Right now i only have plan till i deliver .. After that i totally have no idea what i'm going to do and what will i do ..
