Full of Thai!

Lately Isaiah is drowning me with Thai language .. Seriously driving me nuts .. He will blah non stop the whole day .. His thai language will comes when he wants something but i don't know what he wants .. He will blah and point .. I can move the whole table of stuff to the floor for him than i will know which is the one that he wants! After awhile he start blah-ing again .. Really get on my nerves at times ..

Yesterday i spend the whole evening changing my whole blog skin and adding on link for my SB LOs photos .. Haben got the time to do it for so long ..
Before that i brought Isaiah down for a walk .. And he was running around at the open space area, nothing dangerous except for the rough floor .. Fell a few times due to the rough friction so got his kneecap cut and bleed .. Well it was a very small cut so i let him continue his play .. He will chase after the birds or the leaves on the floor when the wind blows .. Screaming and shouting in excitement .. Very cute of him .. After awhile we went back home and i quickly bath him before his dinner .. Of course there is protest when i bring him back ..
Didn't go out the rest of the evening.. Hb bought stingray back for me and we dig into it .. Send Isaiah off to bed at about 9pm and i rot till 12am .. Nothing to do .. Boring night ..

Today another drama of him .. Crying non stop cause he wanted something that he not suppose to play with it .. Kept fussing and refused to eat his lunch .. So i left him on his bumper mat to roll and scream all he likes and i continue to do my stuff.. Eventually he realise that it is not going to work and stop crying so i put him on the high chair and feed him lunch ..

I don't know why i'm feeling really tired lately .. I hope that it is not what i'm thinking about .. p.r.e.g.n.a.n.t! I swear that i'm very cautious to make sure that there will be no accident .. Cause i don't want a second baby now .. There is too much things to trouble .. We yet get a place, and we need to move out next year .. I want to make sure i'm really prepared before no#2 comes .. Be it money or even mental and physical .. Seriously my mind and body is not ready .. I don't know why .. Maybe due to the tiredness i felt recently .. And i want to spend more time with Isaiah instead .. Sigh .. Hb doesn't seems to be worry ....... Cause he will not be the caretaker anyway ..

Maybe i'm thinking of the worse but it does bothers me .. Going through all these thinking is emotional burden to me! Very frustrating ... I will not be happy to enjoy pregnancy too if i'm like this right now .. But what if really hit the jackpot?? abort ?? I knew i couldn't bring myself to do it if not i will have done it for my first pregnancy with isaiah .. But what else can i do then bringing no2 to this world ? Sigh ......

Conclusion: We(or maybe me) are not ready for a second baby!