My Walk With Jesus Part 1

This few days i feel like keeping a record of how i met The Lord Jesus and the times i experience him. I ever written all my experience on a little note book but stop after that ..... cuz there is too much to write and is very tiring to write so i shall blog for me to remember forever ...
How God healed me
How He bring me to heaven showing me the real heaven
How he talk to me
How he lead me to write more than 20 songs in a month!

The day i went to church
I still remember when i'm in nursery and kindergarten i was in a christian school. Everyday i get in touch with worship songs and bible stories. I did remember most of what the teachers had told us. How Jesus was born in the stable, how the people came to worship him ...
Well, this became a small little part in my memory and soon it was behind the back of my head.
When i'm in Sec 1 and that is my rebellious stage, my worried elder brother decided that i should go to church with him! Surprisingly i was excited about it as i knew about Jesus as wish to know more.. Attempt to read the bible alot of times but nothing makes sense to me .. No one explain it to me or teaches me how to read the bible. So it became a normal book to me.

First time to church was New creation at Suntec City. Nothing special ... But still i tag along my brother over the next few service.. i can still remember how my brother and me drag ourself out of our bed and took a bus to suntec as we slept all the way in bus as early as 7am. And still we have to secretly leave the house without my grandma knowing as she seriously hate that.
After a few times i stop going ... I can't remember the reason but maybe i do not have any special feeling and is very sleepy to listen to the pastor talking for 2 hours and not understanding a single sentence of it.
I went back to my own world playing, hanging out with friends etc ...

When i am 16 years old, things took a turn. From 13-16 years old my life wasn't smooth sailing and it wasn't fun at all. I went through my toughest time in my life. The darkest moment of it .. Everything fall apart and i got into depression .. It took me 2 years to walk out of depression but still life was full of bitterness and unhappiness.
However one Sunday morning, i didn't know why but i woke up really early that day at 9am which was unusual for me. Walked to FCBC at bukit merah about 4 bus stops away from my place alone .. I told myself, i want to see God, i want a change in my life .. I sat outside the church and waited. Waiting for the door to open.. Soon alot of people came and some people did came over and talk to me and then i knew that the service starts at 11.30am and it was a Chinese service. So i actually waited about 2 hours for the door to open!
I called my mother and told her to join me since it was a Chinese service. After that we saw her friend there and she introduce us to a lady called Baoyin. She was in her early 50 small build but her face is full of joy. She accompanied us throughout the service.

During the service, the very first time i felt God's presence and the first time i tear in church with more than 1000 people around. Somehow the presence is so strong that i can't control myself. I told myself i must attend the following week as to me, i have met God and he did answer me when i told myself outside that door saying "i want to meet god today".

Actually throughout my 3 years, my bro's gf who is my SIL now did invite us to FCBC for shows before. But every time i miss it. Until that day, my heart told me to seek God.
I never own a bible before. The bible that i am always holding on came out of nowhere in my house and i never know the owner of the bible. No one at home is a christian expect my brother a half christian during that time.
I'm glad that my journey with God started on that service and i went to church every Sunday after that. Although there are times of struggles in my heart which i do not wish to go ..

Jesus Healed Me
In between, i fell ill. I was admitted to hospital for a few times due to extreme pain in my womb.
I spent 1 month in hospital. Every time i'm admitted for a week, i was discharge back home. But after 2-3 days i'll be sent back due to the pain. Doc found something in my womb measuring 2.8cm x 2.8cm. That period of time is very painful for me. I wasn't allowed to eat as i might be pushed in for operation he anytime. I was on drip for that whole month. And my weight drop to 39kg or even lower. I refused to go on drip after sometime as i have to change my drip needle every 3 days or my veins will be hurting badly. But going through the poking process everyday with blood test is driving me crazy. Till a stage where i make a fuss in the middle of the night and refused to admit antibiotic through the drip as i need to take 3 different type of antibiotic at one time. And everything the nurse flushes my drip, tears will ran down my cheek. And fearing i will never be able to give birth again if i stop medication. Well doc never find a way to get me out of these pain.
I decided to discharge after 3 weeks and went to see a private gynae. They couldn't find any thing in my womb. God has healed me! His words from the bible has given me strengthen throughout my hospital stay.
My gynae asked me to go for an op to check if there is anything inside. If there is the will open me up to take it off.
Before i closed my eyes on the operation table, i saw Jesus. A white figure that shine brightly at me. I couldn't see his face but i felt his warm in that cold room.
He opened 2 holes at my tummy area. He found nothing. Only leftover membrane of the thing. So it means the thing is gone!
I stayed in the hospital for 1 week and after that i never went back in again.

My First Encounter Weekend With God
A few months later, Baoyin as my cellgroup leader asked if i wish to join the church camp - Encounter weekend(Encounter with god). Price wasn't cheap. $280 for 3 days 2 night at a hotel. As i'm still a student that time, i have to asked my dad if i'm allowed to go. Amazingly my dad said okay and gave me the money the very next day. I happily sign up and went ahead.

3 days 2 nights have changed my life.. No one can imagine that..
Pastor go through lessons with us, letting us know more about God and the problems in our life.
The sins that we committed in the past
Sins is not a horrible thing, but sin hurts Jesus but he is forgiving if we repent. That's why he died on the cross for us.
The unforgivness in our heart
There might be people in our life that hurt us badly by words or action. We may forgotten it but deep in our heart this pain has never gone away.
Jesus brought me back to the places and the people who hurt me deeply and taking it away one by one .. After that i can feel my heart is so much lighter. After crying everything out.
The curses from our ancestors or from our sin that we committed
Well, this sounds horrible to me. The first day, pastor gave us a 3 pages of paper with alot of question in it and we were asked to fill them up at night back in our hotel room.
Questions were like, what sins we have committed before etc. And we must be true to our heart and write everything down. The next day during "breaking of curses" lesson, we were asked to tear the paper away in the name of Jesus, breaking all the curses of sickness like inherhit illness, cancer etc.
The rest of the lesson is about baptism, visions etc.
The last day, we are all full of joy in our face. We have given all to Jesus leaving our burdens, bitterness with Him.
The last lesson is "Baptism of the Holy Spirit"
The lesson i deeply experience God and how true he is.
I felt holy spirit strongly as he fill me with his love. He given me a gift from God - speak in tongue.
Whoever wish to get tongue have have faith in God and believe that you will received it.
The moment holy spirit came upon me, my tongue turn numb, and start moving .. speaking in a forigen language that i do not understand. The feeling was amazing.
To explain more about speaking in tongue, it sounds like a devil language right ?
Well is a language that devil do not understand and only God understand it.
Each person have a unique tongue. A Caucasian may have a tongue of chinese but he doesn't know what it meant! And tongues comes from the bible verses in different language. A verses that God given to us. Knowing what is our prayer deep in our heart. Tongue will change overtime depending on what are you praying for. Well i kept this gift from God till today.