Surprisingly hubby was sitting right beside me with his ds lite now as normally he will be snoring away at this time but he took a short nap while making Isaiah sleep. As mention in previous post i'm having sleepless night for nearly a week.
Slept at 4am last night again. When in to the room at 12am toss and turn till 1am and decide to do something to make me sleepy
Climb out of bed and ended up watching dvd while scrapping. No more photos to scrap and i couldn't print as my photo printer ended up in my bedroom so i scrap some past photos on a flip book which i have no idea why i bought it in the first place! Was quite simple and easy and will be putting it in our first love nest.
Show ended at 3am, clean the mess i have made after scrapping and when back to the bed with my ds lite. Played for an hour or more and finally feel like sleeping ..
Just when i'm about to sleep Isaiah start to flip and toss around his bed.. faint!
Woke up at about 9am today. Of course feeling sleepy and in a super bad mood. Make milk and slack on the sofa and dozed off at about 1pm. Woke up at 2pm and realise Isaiah dozed off beside me on the sofa and i have no idea what time he slept. But for sure he had a short nap today cause he was totally cranky the whole afternoon.
Mum popped by after her hair cut at 3pm and went over her place while waiting for hubby to come and fetch us. Decided to go and take a look at one toy poodle puppy after realising muffin has been reserved when we are keen to take her back as we miss her badly. but no choice :( the seller couldn't back out her words after promising to reserve muffin for the new buyer and i didn't want to make things difficult for her too. Well i hope muffin goes to a nice family and she will always be my 4th doggy in my life and her name is muffin *sob sob*
Whenever i thought that muffin will be going to a new family still makes me sad. Her playpen is still there at the corner and we are not thinking to clearing it off.. arghhh! this is getting hard for me. the feeling towards her is just so strong! miss her badly ...
Went to see another puppy today. Everything seems good. That breeder is a rich girl staying at a big house and her breeder area is clean. Puppy looks healthy, on good diet, paper train etc etc etc .. She is the puppy we are looking for. A healthy one BUT i think we will not be bringing her home. She is a active and playful furkid and the way she play with me is quite rough and i don't think is suitable for us with a toddler at home. All puppies is playful but we are looking for a affectionate, lap dog and a tame one. The feeling this puppy gave me was good but i didn't want to handle another active furkid and a active toddler at the same time. Too bad we find her character not suitable for our family as she is really beautiful with nice red fur coat. Although she is really cute and it does attract me a little but when i left i did not that feeling of "must buy" feeling that muffin gave me.
Price slightly expensive than muffin at $1.1k
The moment we left hubby said "I still prefer muffin" and i told him "is hard to get the same dog as muffin"
I know we are not getting another puppy to replace muffin but somehow it still linger in our mind and we are comparing other puppies with muffin. I think it will takes awhile for me to put muffin at the back of my mind.
Well, puppy hunting still goes on ... I really wish to get a toy poodle as is my dream dog and i want Isaiah to have a dog to grow up with as i'm a dog lover so i wants him to love animals like how he love others.
After viewing we head back home. Isaiah fall asleep on our way back and quickly settled him to bed upon reaching home.
Back to my title "I'm in love again..."
Well i'm not in love with another guy or something. But i felt that i must fall in love once again as i feel love in my life has been lesser or maybe i'm too frustrated to realise it
But i know hubby is treating me better each day. Come to think about it, he never say no to whatever i request provided that it makes sense and reasonable.
Like buying ds lite, buying a puppy, my scrapbook stuff, stuff for isaiah etc ..
Spending on muffin alone cost quite abit. vet, playpen, pee tray etc ..
Feeling a little bad, i spent $500 in 1 week plus! i couldn't recall what did i spend on but i never except it comes to such a big amount.
Although hubby didn't scold me but i know money is something he is worried of as our flat is coming soon.. More money will be spent in renovation and some small amount of money buying household stuff can add up alot.
Although is abit worrying but i try not to think of it so much as it will stress up both of us and i hope by then everything will go smoothly
30th June is our 2nd anniversary. Time flies so fast and isaiah is coming 19 months.
So much ups and downs throughout and i felt hubby love me in another way now. he is sweet and caring at first but now is different. he expressed his love in another way and i believe is due to isaiah too. everyday we are so wore out after isaiah slept. but the time isaiah slept we need to do housework and hubby needs to help out too. even though he doesn't complain after he had a long day at work but he knows is not easy looking after isaiah. isaiah is not a easy toddler especially he is going through terrible 2 stage now :(
Recently i'm thinking of having a second baby. The feeling is strong and i am still thinking if we are prepared for another one. but i wish to have a girl and a playmate for isaiah.
Next year isaiah will be going to childcare at tpy area and i will be going to work. not full time as i didn't want to let isaiah spend very little time at home. i may be opening a store next year but i'm still planning..
hubby agreed to hire a helper or just a part time one to help out with housework as it will be not easy for me to handle isaiah after work. but cost of a part time helper is almost the same as a maid when part time one comes 3-4 times weekly. it makes no sense to get one to come in once a week and ended up i still need to do daily chores.
if i'm going to have a 2nd baby, a helper will be a great help as someone is able to cook. no worries on helper bullying isaiah as by then isaiah is going cc and he is able to express himself better. but if 2nd baby comes along and i still need to work meaning 2nd baby will be with maid ? this will be the planning provided my business is able to go on which means lesser time spend at work. more time at home with 2nd baby and isaiah.
however is just a planning, hubby thinks it will be better if i conceive next year after settle our new love nest.
Well, let God decide. if he think we can manage, then he will let me conceive a second one and will do the planning for me with abundance grace and strength.
Logging off now as i didn't want hubby to sleep too late and yes he is working tomorrow.
Should i bring isaiah to swimming or playgym tomorrow ??
Pics taken after my bath. Has been a long time since we took a pic together.
