Not blogging recently .. Wasn't in the mood to blog actually .. Was a tummy aching week .. Don't understand why tummy ache never goes away .. Isaiah is doing really well now .. Kicking hard everyday .. Moving like nobody business .. Of course is hurting me now and then .. Sometimes he will give his daddy a shock when he is touching my tummy ..
Feeling rather down this few days .. Not feeling well, mood not being really good .. Jeannie has given birth .. Reality is sinking in for me .. Of course this makes me more emotional .. One side of me is excited to cuddle Isaiah in my arms .. Another side of me is overwhelm with fear .. Fear of facing a little and fragile baby .. Crying non stop and not knowing what he wants .. Fearing of being at home alone with him .. Fearing of doing confinement myself .. Starting to feel self pity which is not good at all .. Hope that after Isaiah is born there won't be so much problems .. Not him giving me but people around giving me ..
About 7 weeks left .. Or i can say about 4 more weeks to full term .. Prepared that i'll deliver earlier than my EDD .. Got everything that baby needs .. But me ? Never get anything for myself yet .. Still got to shop for pyjamas .. Don't intend to pack hospital bag now cause i don't know what to pack .. Everyone around is getting nervous for me asking me to pack first .. Headache ......
Feeling: blues!!




