I'm in my week 32 now.. Still feeling unwell.. Has been coughing for 3 whole weeks.. Couldn't lie down at all as it cause me to be so breathless... So i actually sleep in my sitting position for 3-4 hours everyday.. Only able to fall asleep at 4-5am and wake up at 8.30am and start my coughing again .. And my coughing is non stop kind. Quite upset about this cough as i tried all way but is not getting any better. Went to Eu Yang Sang to see TMC sinseh, spent $50 and not much help. Went to GP 4 times and not helping too.. Finished all the medication prescribe by doc and even finish 3 bottles of cough syrup but not improving at all.
Feeling really desperate throughout this 2 weeks... This week everything got worse.. Coughing got worse too... At times i feel like breaking down and cry out loud. But i couldn't as it makes me more breathless..
I only can sit down and once i start to stand up and walk i couldn't breathe and is very horrible feeling!
Yesterday brought Isaiah to school. After dropping him, i walked to the nearest bus stop and rested for 10 mins. Walked to the market which is about 5 mins but i took 10 mins to walk there and rest for another 15 mins. Bought some food and walk back home, resting after every 5 mins walk. A normal 10 mins walk took me 45 mins yesterday. I thought i was going to die anytime!
Rested for awhile at home while waiting for Isaiah to come back from school bus..
Fed him and we bath together! Cause i have no strength at all for anything.. Left him playing with water while i let the hot water run on my body to ease the tightness in my chest..
Finally decided to go to the doc again.. Of course dragging myself to the doc. Hubby came back just to fetch me to the doc as i couldn't even walk Isaiah to the road side to take a cab.
After a long long queue seeing this doc which is quite good in cough and found that i gotten bronchitis.. Greatest horror to me! I never never had a bad cough throughout my 23 years! Never never been so sick before and yesterday someone told me i got bronchitis which i never expect i will catch such stupid sickness. But at least i gotten an answer after coughing for 3 whole weeks.
Given another round of antibiotics and medication to clear my airway in order for me to breath properly. But the medication was quite strong which cause heart to beat faster and hands to tremble and that's was the side effect of the medication to open my airway. No choice i will take it then cough like never ending.
Spent $80 on doc but was quite reasonable as my antibiotics alone is $40 for 5 tablets! so one tablet is $8~! And 4 more medication so i find it ok if i recover! I hope this will be the last time i visit a doc for this cough.
This month i'm totally broke! Spent nearly $300 on doc ... Have been taking medication since 3rd April till today and will have to continue till end of this month.
Last night finally able to lie down and sleep. After taking the medication i start coughing chucks of hard green long phlegm. i know is disgusting but they are all stuck in my lungs.. Feel much better after coughing out as all this way i've been vomiting water instead of phlegm!
Middle of the night, heart starts to race and bones start aching maybe due to the medication. Seems like slipping in and out of coma throughout the night but manage to sleep throughout and wake up feeling so much better in the morning. Isaiah missed school today as he told me he didn't want to go to school and i was still quite drowsy after medication i decide to keep him at home.
Seriously i find this pregnancy really tough .. I mean baby in me .. From first trimester, i'm busy packing and moving house. Ended up having bad cramps but he has been clinging on me strongly. 2nd trimester admitted to KKH due to bad cough and experience bad cramps again cause of cough but he is still clinging on.. Third trimester i'm down with bronchitis and taking all sorts of medication and he is still clinging on strongly. Not forgetting carrying Isaiah throughout my pregnancy and washing toilet as usual! Sleepless night when Isaiah is sick.. I really feel for my baby .. I'm glad God is full of grace which keep my baby strong. Last night while experiencing the strong side effect, i can feel him kicking and turning very uncomfortably in me.. i think he might feel some discomfort too.
Last week, i decide to look around for a different name for baby. Initially hb wanted to name Josiah cause we wish that he will grow up like King Josiah who only does thing that is right in the eyes of the Lord. But i suddenly have a feeling to look around for different names. Manage to convince hb to consider other names but Josiah will be our choice if we couldn't find a name.
Quite a few friends start voting for names.. Mostly chosen Jovian. But in the end i decided to give it a miss as it is name after God of Jove. I didn't want baby to grow up in the name of any other God. Just like i won't name him Jesus! I came across the name Ezekiel while looking at names. Didn't think of this name cause of the spelling looks confusing and weird. So i thought of Nathaniel but hbnutella and antenna!
Yesterday i was looking at Isaiah school name list and i saw a boy name Ezekiel who is coming for trial. this name comes to my mind again and it was not so rare in SG as i thought. But hb is still considering...
Again, yesterday i was feeling really terrible and while i was praying for protection for baby in me, suddenly i have a firm decision to name his Ezekiel. Which mean strengthen by God or strength of God. For what i experience through this pregnancy and for this little body in me that goes through so much for the past few months i feel Ezekiel is right for him. I called hubby and told him "He shall be name Ezekiel!" But he is still considering.. Will leave it to God to choose a suitable name for him. But somehow my mind is set as i have a strong feeling for this name. i don't want to worry about him getting teased. Anyone who tease someone name is very naive and immature.
My baby Isaiah is like a big boy now! Since Tuesday he start taking school bus back home.. Yesterday was the 2nd day .. I'm so proud of him as he never cry at all while taking the sch bus for the very first time without me accompanying him. His school bus is not cheap! $100 for one way!!! But it does ease my load abit as i don't have to wait 2 hours for him to finish his school.
Talked to his teacher yesterday and asked how is he is school and teacher comment that he is quite naughty cause he is very active but he is very good in everything else like motor skills and pick up things really fast.
Actually i saw big improvement in his after attending school. Now he is talking so much more in sentences.. and is long long sentences like 6-7 words.. able to express himself so much better and he can even ask my mom "where are you going?"
At Montessori school they always play bricks like lego and i bought one set of lego for him.. he is able to fix an aeroplane using the bricks and i was really amazed by that.
Enough of blogging .. Got to take medication and off too lalaland ...
